Somehow I am in a position (personally and professionally) where I am responsible for so many others, yet I do not want the responsibility. I am in a management position at work, despite going into my career field because I enjoy the individual contributor role, as a clinical social worker. I enjoy working one-on-one with people to help them improve their quality of life. I enjoy being creative and having a flexible environment. Instead, I spend more time doing administrative tasks and listening to my staff complain about their jobs or their clients. We work with complex mental health issues and clients with psychosis. We lose clients to suicide or homicide. It is a stressful environment and I do my best to put my own stress or needs aside to be a strong leader to my team and to support them. I do this because it is the only thing that makes the job meaningful. However, my responsibilities to others causes me to avoid myself or my own needs/responsibilities. The same thing happens with family and friends, or other obligations I say "yes" to. Sometimes I think I am compelled to fix other people's problems so I do not have to focus my own. Currently, I feel the weight of my responsibilities to those "counting on me" and feel stuck. I want a change - I want less responsibilities - I need to start focusing on my physical and emotional health and wellbeing, yet I do not seem to be able to.