This must have only happened a few months ago. I'm very open to my friends, I give them advice and try to always have a nice balance of being logical while still treating their emotions like they exist. A while ago, my friend was really struggling, and I was helping them out. I started to just speak kindly to them, motherly, and it made me feel warm. I felt all the love I felt for my friend coursing through me in a way that couldn't be put into words, and I loved them with all of my being. I tried to get the words down for them, but then again a tight hug would be better if we weren't online friends. 

And then, I started thinking of how it affected them. How my words changed their feelings, how I could get them to believe what I was saying. I thought they probably saw me as very motherly, or very caring, or just kind. Seeing myself in that light felt wrong, but right. Like it wasn't a stage meant for me, but I was willing to put on a beautiful performance for them.

I love them so much. I hope they see me how I think they do. I hope they know how much I love them.